I’ve never understood posts along the lines of ‘You’re still here. Just keep breathing’. I only ever reblogged it for the pretty backdrops. That was so superficial of me. But now i get it. I totally get it. Those thoughts have always been there. I’ve just never even thought of entertaining them until now. I’ve got no one to tell. I know there are thousands around me that are feeling the exact same way. But I feel all alone.
I mean, what can they actually tell me that I don’t already know? Don’t give up? Just press on? I know it sucks too? Goddamit. Am I just kidding myself? Am I just living in some delusional fantasy where I can come back from this to where I want to be?